ramblings from my heart and mind

{On a constant journey with the Lord-striving to glorify him with everything I am-love others the way Christ has and continues to love me-determined to be the best daughter, friend, mentor, and individual I can be}

Monday, October 27, 2008

...and I will allure her

So as we can all tell from my last post- a little upset, woe is me, complaining a tad much, over exaggerating, anything and everything else...well I have thought about it a lot. Reflecting on life, being in the word this week has led me back over and over again to 1 Peter 3:3-5- Inner beauty being the main theme. Good, great, love it- God speaks through that verse more than I could imagine. So as I am being led to this piece of scripture, I am also led to read the book Captivating, by Stasi Eldridge. Great book! I read is about 2.5 years ago and times in between, but this time I am really reading it. lol...It led me to a couple verses in Hosea, specifically 2:6-7, and 2:14-"Therefore, behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak tenderly to her." Gesh- how amazing is this- The God of the universe, our maker, lover, best friend- will allure me (meaning to attract or charm) and speak tenderly- sweetly, lovingly...I don't know why this blows me away to the extent that it does, but I love it. Kinda cheesy, but I have this set time during my day, everyday, where I have what I know call DQ time. Daily questions- they are questions that I hear or think of through reading, studying the word, etc. that I can and need to ask myself daily. The ones I am currently thinking through and keeping in front of me are- Asking Jesus to she me my beauty...- Jesus, how are you romancing me right now?- and God, what do you see in me?

Thursday, October 23, 2008

single friends dwindling OR friends doubling????

It's so hard to think about, to live a life of singleness, be consumed by almost everyone around you in relationships, getting engaged, married, having babies- it's hard- no doubt. It's me right now. I'm trying to capture the moment...I have to an extent, but am I content? I mean- I long to be in a relationship, I see it all around me: people in love, families going around town, being pregnant... I love it. I want it- I'll get it, just not right now. I understand that, but for some reason it is so hard to let it go. "Put it in God's hands" ok- and when you don't see anything happen for a while and another couple gets married- here it comes again... CONGRATS! woo... why is it so hard? I just want to be content with where I am now, what God has called me to do right now, and live it up- our days are numbered. It's a "fun" game right- sometimes I don't like playing.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Family Reunion!!!!

Man, last Sunday we had a family reunion at my Aunt and Uncle's house in Dansville. It is not far from Rochester, where I went for my cousins wedding and we went out there because my grandparents (on Dads side) were leaving to come back to Fl the next day! It was kind of a emotional shock to me though. As we are all sitting there enjoying the company, my Grandma called me to come sit with her on the couch. Now I have a huge family, 6 aunts and uncles on both sides, so there were a ton of people there. My Grandma who is now I think 80, went through all of her photos of her kids (so my Dad) when she was home. She sat there and went through them all with me and was handing the ones of my dad for me to keep. I couldn't understand why she was doing this, and she said, "I am coming to the end of my road, so I wanted to get these out so you have them." I cannot express what went through my head. The pics are pretty funny though! We will just say, you learn a lot about your family as you go through pics. Ill post some soon...

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Soooooooo Good!





Oh man- I know I'm in Rochester, NY when I have some good ole Country Sweet. I am not kidding you- they have the absolute best chicken wings with the most amazing sauce you have ever put in your mouth. GOODNESS!!!!! It is a must every time we come to visit family here- today we literally got off the airplane and literally went directly to the restaurant. My mouth is salivating even thinking about it...YUM!